Twisted Thoughts

sleeping disorder.

2005-07-15T18:09:00.000-07:00

ANO ORAS KA USUALLY NATUTULOG?
recently umaga na, mga 2.

TINGIN MO BA SAPAT ITO?
no. duh.

MAY INIINOM KA BANG GAMOT PARA
MAKATULOG?
wala. kelangan ko nga ng pampagising e hahaha

ANO ANG TATLONG BAGAY NA PALAGI MONG
GINAGAWA BAGO KA MATULOG?
gumawa ng assignments, gumawa ng assignments, gumawa ng assignments

NAGDADASAL KA BA BAGO MATULOG?
not anymore.

ANO DINADASAL MO?
kulit mo.

NATUTUPAD NAMAN BA?
hay.

ANO UNA MONG NAIISIP PAGKAGISING?
kahihiga ko lang ah?

ANO UNA MO GINAGAWA PAGKAGISING?
matulog ulit.

SINO UNA MO KINAKAUSAP?
yung isang aid namin para tanungin kung anong ulam.

ANO ORAS KA BA GUMIGISING?
dapat before 5 pero nag-eextend ako hanggang 5-5.30.

BAKIT GANONG ORAS?
kasi yun na yun.

mushy shit.

2005-07-08T07:02:00.000-07:00

1. Love is Blind or Lovers are Blind?
* lovers are blind

2. Ano ba mas mahalaga: tagal ng pinagsamahan o
tindi ng nararamdaman?
* tindi ng nararamdaman

3. The one you Love or the one who Loves u? y?
* the one i love. i can never lie to myself, more to the person who loves me and the one i love.

4. Long distance relationship, hanggang kelan ka
tatagal?
* if you really love each other, your thing would last.

5. Past o present? Sino sa palagay mo?
* most pasts are still evident in the present. so, i dont know. haha

6. Relationship na puro away, magtatagal kaya?
* some couples find the need to quarrel all the time to realize how much they love each other.

7. Okay lang ba na ex Gf or bf mo naging sila ng
bestfriend mo?
* why not? if their feelings are genuine no one can do anything about it.

8. Mahirap bang magselos lalo't wala kang karapatan?
* well, yea.

9. Corny ba ang makipagbalikan sa ex?
* errr i dont know.

10. Nagkakausap ba kayo ng Ex mo?
* never had an ex.

12. If you were to choose bf/gf smoker or not?
* please, all of you, do not smoke.

13. Are u willing to give ur eyes to someone you love?
* if i really love that person and baliw ako ng time na yon, pwede din.

14. Do you believe in soulmates?
* errrr i dont know. yea. i see them in my parents kc e.

15. what attracts you most?
* eyes, talents, kasabugan pero seryosong mabait

16. Ano gagawin mo pag na inluv ka sa barkada mo?
* ka-barkada? ano pa ba dapat gawin? hahaha

17. Anung meron cya na wala ang iba?
* basta.

18. Nasabi mo na ba sa kanya ung feelings mo?
* no.

19. Ready ka na ba 4 a new relationship?
* new? never had naman e. not ready for one cguro.

20. What can u assure her/him if ever she/he & you
will be in a relationship?
* my faithfulness.

the word of the day

2005-07-06T07:45:00.000-07:00

shit. why does life have to be so damn hard? shit talaga.

last.

2005-07-02T06:13:00.000-07:00

1. whose picture is it that you keep on
your wallet?
:: i don't keep pictures in my wallet

2. what time do you go to bed?
:: wish ko 7 tulog na ko. but no.

3. what was the last thing you did before
filling this survey?
:: filled a different survey.

4. who's the one you always meet the
most?
:: blockmates, friends, cousins.

5. who's the person you're gonna call if you need
help?
:: yumi

6. what's on your mind just now?
:: my knee. and people.

7. who's number on your speed dials?
:: no one

8.with whom do you wanna be to have fun?
:: friends

9. what's your latest movie?
:: my latest movie? i wish i had. nyaha.

10. when was the last time you went out?
:: last night.

11. what do you hate the most for now?
:: the pain! ==> exactly!

12. when was the first time you sleep alone?
:: slept dapat yan. anyway. i always sleep alone.

13. what do you wanna do for now?
:: sleep and kick someone. haha

14. what do you do for everyday besides eat and
sleep?
:: walk.

15. what things could piss you off?
:: madaming bagay.

16. fave pet?
:: joey, my dog.

17. colors that make you happy?
:: green.

18. most fave thing in your room?
:: my bed.

19. what was the last thing you bought for
your room?
:: battery for my remote control. haha

20. any instruments in your room?
:: wala

21. do you cook?
:: no

22. miss someone?
:: yea

23. plan to buy something?
:: yea i just don't know what it is. haha

24. are you satisfied with your life now?
:: maybe

25.do you like seafood?
:: yea

26. breakfast or dinner?
:: breakfast. i usually don't have time to eat it but when i do, i love it.

27. what do you usually eat for breakfast?
:: bread

28. did you eat breakfast today?
:: yes! yum.

29. do you recycle?
::: yes

30. do you have a laptop?
:: yes, but i share it with my parents.

31. what're your favorite fast food chains?
:: mcdo, kfc, jollibee

32. cats or dogs?
:: dogs

33. salty or sweet?
:: sweet

34. city or country?
:: city

35. what's your favorite kind of jeans?
:: comfy ones. hehe ==>tama

36. Is kissing normal for our age?
:: i think so

37. are you athletic?
:: no. i wish.

38. do you swear?
:: a lot.

39. would you ditch your friends for a date?
:: i dont know. depends.

40. do you have your own cell phone?
:: yea

41. what do you wear to bed?
:: big shirt and shorts

42. ever had a crush on a teacher?
:: yup. he's gay and he's cute!Ü

43. coke or pepsi?
:: coke

44. sugar or spice?
:: spice

45. can you use chopsticks?
:: not really

46. do you like to read for pleasure?
:: yes

47. do you care about getting goodgrades?
:: yea

48. have you ever fallen asleep in class?
:: oopsy

49. get a job or ask your parents for money?
:: ask parents for money

50. is your dad strict?
:: yes super

51. do your parents give you enough privacy?
:: yes

52. do your parents trust you?
:: not really. haha

53. would you trade places (in life) with your best
friends..?
:: no

54. does your best friend get on your nerves?
:: sometimes

55. does love conquer all?
:: it conquers all the good stuff and triples the bad stuff. sick feeling after. yuck.

2005-07-02T05:52:00.000-07:00

wat song are ya listening to now?
-- fall to pieces

*colour ya ar wearing now?
-- beige

*now, who's on ur mind?
-- shit naman

*now, wat lyrics do ya like so much?
-- i don't want to fall to pieces. I just want to sit and stare at you.
I don't want to talk about it.
I don't want a conversation. I just want to cry in front of you.
I don't want to talk about it 'coz im in love with you.

*where do ya feel like going now
-- nowhere

*wat movie do ya wan to watch?
-- ewan

*now, wat do ya want most?
-- i dont know. money.

*now, wat are ya eating n drinking?
-- nothing.

*current mood right now?
-- pissed

*when is ur birthday?
-- december 27

*where did ya buy ur sch bag?
-- esprit

*where did ya buy ur pencil box?
-- i don't remember

*how was school today?
-- no school today
_______________________________
- Studies -

*best subjects?
-- uh can't decide. fil and bio siguro. ewan. basta hndi lit.

*worst subject?
-- lit.

_________________
- Past -

*last time ya fell in love?
-- drop it.

*last movie ya watched? with who?
-- finding nemo. with kuya erni.

*last shirt ya wore before this shirt?
-- white shirt

*last thing ya held?
-- cellphone

*last time ya cried?
-- hay

*last place ya went? with?
-- drew's. with friends.

*last dream
-- i can't remember.

*last call ya received?
-- yumi. a while ago lang.

*last testi. ya got?
-- i can't remember.

*last message ya got in friendster?
-- can't remember also

*last thing ya did?
-- typed?

*last present u got?
-- ewan

*last present ya gave to someone?
-- a hairbrush for my lola ata.

*last issue u read in the newspaper?
-- i don't read the newspaper.
_____________________________

-Love Life -

*who's the first person ya fell in love with?
-- yuck

*how many girls did ya like before ?
-- girls? none? i like my friends. do they count?

can't stop.

2005-07-02T05:39:00.000-07:00

1. shampoo first then soap or soap first?
* soap first

2. brand of cigarette you smoke?
* i don't smoke

3. last movie u watched?
* finding nemo ulit kanina

4. what did you eat for dinner last night?
* chicken fingers. hi dang.

5. what is the last thing u do b4 u sleep?
* lie down?

6. people who really know u?
* friends

7. oldest thing in your fridge?
* uh the fridge itself? i dont know.

8. chicken, beef or pork?
* chicken

9. brand, color and drawing or text of favorite shirt?
* any brand, black, "fuck off" nakalagay in big bold white letters

10. favorite cartoon character?
* reggie rocket. pati si little lulu at si arnold

11. favorite non-alcoholic drink?
* water. c2. coke.

12. favorite pet?
* joey. yung aso ko.

13. best christmas gift?
* cash

14. how much do u hate ur enemies?
* i actually don't have nay of those. haha

15. favorite brand of shoes?
* nike

16. stupidest thing done?
* shit. basta.

17. last subject flunked?
* math nung first year.

18. choose one: "hells angel" or "heavens devil"?
* hell's angel

19. last person to smile at you?
* oh shit.

20. Is he/she cute?
* ugh.

strike 3

2005-07-02T05:30:00.000-07:00

1)Who's at home now?
> everyone

2) Did u go out yesterday?
> yea

3) Who did you go out with?
> friends

4) What time did u wake up today?
>9

5) Did u go anywhere today?
> no

6) What did u do there?
> nothing

7) What did u have for dinner?
> fish, salad, papaya

8) What do u call your mother?
> mom

9) Are u and your mom on good terms?
> yea

10) Are u the only girl/boi in ur family? --
> yea

11) What perfume/cologne are u using
now
> cologne. basta.

12) Who did u last talk to last night?
> dang

13) Are u spoiled?
> no

14) Do u want to get married?
> yea

15) With who? .
> i dont know

16) Where do u think your friends are now?
> home. or outside.

17) Do u think your friends need u now?
> yea

18) Where do u wish to be?
> i am where i wish to be

19) When will u be buying a car?
> tomorrow. nyaha

20) What type of car do u wanna buy?
> i dont know. we'll see.

21) If u were a car, what type will u be?
> a top-down bmw

22) Who do u wish to meet now?
>hay

23) Do u wanna meet britney spears?
> okay lang

24) Who do u approach when u have a
prob?
> friends. tsaka si yumi cyempre.

25) What do u want for your birthday?
> cash

26) What do u wish for xmas?
> cash

27) Any piercings on u?
> sa ears

28) Would u like to have a tattoo?
> yea pero hndi pwede

30) How many kids do u want?
> 2? i dont know.

31) Any homeworks?
> madami

32) Are u listening to any music now?
what song
> yea and it's my song for tonight. fall to pieces by avril lavigne.

33) Do u believe in miracles?
> no

34) Do u believe in fate?
> yea

35) When did u last cry?
> ugh

36) When did u last smile?
> ngayon

37) When did u last receive a gift?
>two days ago

38) Who has the cutest smile u ever seen?
>myself? haha kapal. ewan. si little guy.

39) What do u want to tell your crush?
> hi.

40) Why are u answering this bulletin?
>pampatanggal ng sama ng loob.

41) Do u kiss your parents good night?
> no

42) Your hair colour?
> black

43) Hairstyl?
> ewan. mahaba.

44) Are u being loved by someone?
> i hope so

45) Any wishes?
> ugh.

surveys as "stress" releasers.

2005-07-02T05:14:00.000-07:00

1. Call me _____
** pia

2. What color of shirt are you wearing
right now?
** beige

3. What Are You Watching Right Now?
** nothing

4. What Was The Last Thing You Ate?
** papaya

5. Do You Believe In Karma?
** yea

6. If You Were A Crayon, what color
would you be? Why?
** green

7. How Is The Weather Right Now?
** ewan. nasa loob ako e at nakababa yung blinds so hndi ko alam kung umuulan. tapos naka-aircon so hndi ko alam kung mainit or malamig talaga.

8. Last Person You Talked To On The
Phone?
** yumi

9. Do You Like The Person Who Sent this?
** yea

10. How Are You Today?
** sick and pissed

11. Favorite Drink(s)?
** water and coke. atbp.

12. Favorite Alcoholic Drink?
** depende sa price.

13. Favorite Sport?
** to play, wla. to watch on the tv, basketball and billiards. to watch live, basketball and soccer.

14.Favorite Hair Color?
** black

15. Favorite Eye Color?
** brown or green or gray. dami.

16. Favorite Band?
** green day.

17. # of x bf/gf?
** you make me laugh.

18. Favorite Months?
** december and june

19. Favorite Foods?
** salads and pasta. pizza. ice cream, chocolates, and cheese. haha

20. Last Movie You Watched?
** finding nemo kanina sa dvd.

21. Favorite Days of the Year?
** my birthday. my day.

22. ??? no questions?!?!
-- bakit? sabihin mo lang.

23. What Was Your Favorite Toy As A
Child?
** yung white kong teddy bear na may zipper sa likod tpos pwede cya maging pillow.

24. Summer or Winter?
** winter

25. Hugs Or Kisses?
** hugs

26. Chocolate Or Vanilla?
** chocolate

27. What do you think about loving
someone who doesn't love you?
** ugh. fine.

28. What are the things that make you
feel uncomfortable?
** pwede ba when na lang? days when i have my period, times when im with an elusive airhead or brat, and instances when i just feel plain uncomfortable. bad trip.

29. Do You Think You're Normal?
** i think.

30. Friends You Have Had The Longest?
** madami.

31. What Did You Do Last Night?
** you wouldn't want to know. i won't share it anyway.

32. Favorite perfume?
** cucumber melon

33. Who Inspires You?
** no one at the moment. ugh.

34. What Are You Afraid Of?
** rats, frogs.

35. Plain, Buttered Or Salted Popcorn
** buttered

36. Missing someone?
** drop it.

shit ka. period.

2005-07-02T05:01:00.000-07:00

1. Latest realization mo?
>>wow. so yun pala. sana sinabi mo na lang para wala nang expectations. ang hirap kaya.

2. Dapat gawin pag nalulungkot?
>>sing

3. Motto mo about LOVE?
>> love sucks

4. Dapat gawin ng guy pag busted?
>> move on

5. Pinakamatinding kalokohang nagawa mo sa
school?
>> uh ewan. i really can't think right now.

6. Gusto mong itawag sayo kung ikaw ang
masusunod?
>> pia? ewan.

7. Pangarap mong summer get-away trip?
>> beach na super layo tapos more than a week dun.

8. Isang bagay na hinding hindi mo tatanggihan?
>> money

9. Masayang libangan kapag umuulan?
>> singing para mas lumakas

10. Isang bagay na pinag-iipunan mo nang husto?
>> wala pa naman. basta nag-iipon lang.

11. Gagawin mo sa susunod mong birthday?
>> matutulog? promise gusto ko gawin yon.

12. Hindi mo makayanan o matagalan?
>> my sudden epiphany.

13. Gusto mong panoorin sa sine?
>> kahit ano. wala akong maisip

14. Gusto mong isigaw ngayon, as in now na!?
>> @*^$#*&#)(@&*^$*^&#*&# mo!

15. Paano ka ma-badtrip?
>> nagmumura. tsaka kumakanta.

16. Madali bang mahalata na may topak ka?
>> super. yung normal ko. yun na yun.

17. Matagal ka ba maligo?
> oo. pero marunong akong mag-magic pag malelate na ko.

18.kumakain ka ba ng vegetables?
>> except okra and ampalaya.

19. Tamad ka ba?
>> oo

20. Nagpplaystation ka ba?
>> not recently

ang lamig promise.

2005-06-26T23:10:00.000-07:00

1.one word to describe urself right now?
--- cold

2.two words you want to say to your loved
one/your crush/significant other?
--- what's up?

3. name 5 of your closest friends
--- yumi, dang, kuya erni, kq, reg

4. what's your favorite number?
--- 7

5. what was the first thing you did after
waking up?
--- did my essay

6. last number of your cellphone number?
--- 1

7. brand of your mobile phone?
--- nokia

8.who was the first person that came to
your mind as you woke up this morning?
--- ms astillero? my english prof

9. who was the last person to make you
feel kilig?
--- c small guy

10. what song is on your mind right now?
--- a smile ata title nun. yung kay barbie na ginamit sa close-up commercial

11. what was the last thing you wrote on a
line?
--- my name

12. whom do you want to call on your
cellphone?
--- kuya erni

13. what's your favorite time of day?
--- sleeping time

14. what color do you like?
--- green

15. last song that you sang:
--- a smile (kung ano mang title nun)

16. do you like to sing?
--- yes. a lot.

18. what was the last song that you
danced to?
--- hndi ko na matandaan

19. favorite songs:
-- madami e.

20. bakit mo sinagutan ang survey na ito?
--- dahil nilalamig na ko dito sa ctc so kelangan ko mag-type para hndi mag-numb yung fingers ko.

21. asan ka ngayon?
--- sa ctc

22. last person you e-mailed.
--- sarili ko. may sinend ako na kelangan ko for project e. so sinend ko sa sarili ko para ma-check ko sa bahay. nyaha.

23. have you worn/are you wearing
braces
--- no

24. how often do you buy load?
--- madalas thrice a month

25. who's the last person in your
phonebook?
--- an unknown person

26. if you were given a chance to visit
another country what would it be?
--- paris

27. name the person that you want to fall
for you at this moment
--- uh wala naman

28. msg to the person u love:
--- i love you? haha kung meron.

what the

2005-06-23T21:13:00.000-07:00

This day is the perfect epitome of a fuck shit day. Period. Smiley.

The Banana

2005-06-23T02:13:00.000-07:00

Home Remedy -- If you want a quick fix for
flagging energy levels there's no better snack than
a banana. Containing three natural sugars --
sucrose, fructose and glucose combined with fiber
a banana gives an instant, sustained and
substantial boost of energy.

Research has proven that just two bananas
provide enough for a strenuous 90-minute
workout. No wonder the banana is the number one
fruit with the world's leading athletes. But energy
isn't the only way a banana can help us keep fit. It
can also help overcome or prevent a substantial
number of illnesses and conditions making it a must
to add to your daily diet.

Depression -- According to a recent survey
undertaken by MIND amongst people suffering from
depression, many felt much better after eating a
banana. This is because bananas contain
trypotophan, a type of protein that the body
converts into serotonin known to make you relax,
improve your mood... and generally make you feel
happier.

PMS -- Forget the pills -- eat a banana. The vitamin
B6 it contains regulates blood glucose levels,
which can affect your mood.

Anemia -- High in iron, bananas can stimulate the
production of hemoglobin in the blood and so helps
in cases of anemia.

Blood Pressure -- This unique tropical fruit is
extremely high in potassium, yet low in salt, making
it the perfect to beat blood pressure. So much so,
the US Food and Drug Administration has just
allowed the banana industry to make official claims
for the fruit: It's ability to reduce the risk of
blood
pressure and stroke.

Brain Power -- 200 students at a Twickenham
(Middlesex) school were helped through their
exams this year by eating bananas at breakfast,
break and lunch in a bid to boost their brain power.
Research has shown that the potassium packed
fruit can assist learning by making pupils more
alert.

Constipation -- High in fiber, including bananas in
the diet can help restore normal bowel action,
helping to overcome the problem without resorting
to laxatives.

Hangovers -- One of the quickest ways of curing a
hangover is to make a banana milkshake,
sweetened with honey. The banana calms the
stomach and, with the help of the honey, builds up
depleted blood sugar levels, while the milk soothes
and rehydrate your system.

Heartburn -- Bananas have a natural antacid effect
in the body so if you suffer from heartburn, try
eating a banana for soothing relief.

Morning Sickness -- Snacking on bananas
between meals helps to keep blood sugar levels up
and avoid morning sickness.

Mosquito bites -- Before reaching for the insect
bite cream, try rubbing the affected area with the
inside of a banana skin. Many people find it
amazingly successful at reducing swelling and
irritation.

Nerves -- Bananas are high in B vitamins that help
calm the nervous system.

Ulcers -- The banana is used as the dietary food
against intestinal disorders because of its soft
texture and smoothness. It is the only raw fruit that
can be eaten without distress in over-chroniculcer
cases. It also neutralizes over-acidity and reduces
irritation by coating the lining of the stomach.

Temperature control -- Many other cultures see
bananas as a 'cooling' fruit that can lower both the
physical and emotional temperature of expectant
mothers. In Thailand, for example, pregnant women
eat bananas to ensure their baby is born with a
cool temperature.

Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)-- Bananas can
help SAD sufferers because they contain the
natural mood enhancer, trypotophan.

Smoking -- Bananas can also help people trying to
give up smoking. The B6, B12 they contain, as well
as the potassium and magnesium found in them
help the body recover from the effects of nicotine
withdrawal.

Stress -- Potassium is a vital mineral which helps
normalize the heartbeat, sends oxygen to the brain
and regulates the body's water-balance. When
stressed, our metabolic rate rises thereby reducing
our potassium levels. These can be rebalanced
with the help of a high-potassium banana snack.

Strokes -- According to research in 'The New
England Journal of Medicine' eating bananas as
part of a regular diet can cut the risk of death by
strokes by as much as 40%!

Warts -- Those keen on natural alternatives swear
that, if you want to kill off a wart, take a piece of
banana skin and place it on the wart, with the
yellow side out. Carefully hold the skin in place
with a plaster or surgical tape!

So you see, a banana really is a natural remedy for
many ills. When compared to an apples, bananas
has four times the protein, twice the carbohydrate,
three times the phosphorus, five times the vitamin
A and iron, and twice the other vitamins and
minerals. Being rich also in potassium, it is one of
the best value foods around.

So maybe its time to change that well-known
phrase to say, "A Banana a day keeps the doctor
away"!

(ang cute nitong story na 'to.Ü)

2005-05-04T18:04:00.000-07:00

One Fine Day...
by Neurotik

Current is equal to voltage over resistance. Ohm's Law. HUH?!

I looked at the clock at my bedside table. It said 4:00 am. Drat. I'm halfway reviewing this chapter but I can't remember who Johannes Kepler is. Sheesh. I'm working overtime. Wait.. That's power. Shucks. Now I'm applying physics in my life. I am going to flunk this long test whether I memorize a dozen formulas or not. And I thought college was fun. Drat.

What I need is coffee. Some strong Batangas coffee. Heck, anything that will stimulate me. Wait, I just remembered that I've finished about three pots of coffee already and four bars of dark chocolate. Darn, my lack of sleep is getting better of me. If I could just rest my eyes for a while. Just an eensy, teensy, little wink. Hmmm. That feels great. Aaaah. Hmmm. Hmmm.

Ring. Riiiiinggg. Ring.

"Hey, how many times are you going to let that alarm clock go off?" my roommate asked me.

"Whaaattt?!!!"

"Your alarm clock has gone off for, like four times."

"Omigod!!!!! It must have been, like thirty minutes or something. I'm late. Nice going. You study like hell then you're late."

"What time is your long test, anyway?"

"Nine."

"Well, you better hurry 'coz it's 8:25 already."

"Thanks for the warning," I said as I ran to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face. Maybe I am late but I am not about to go to school with dragon breath.

I grabbed the first pair of shorts my hand could reach and wrestled with the shirt I found on my head. Now, where is the hole for the head? Darn. Oh boy. I am so late. I jammed a baseball cap on my head. That will probably spare me some seconds against brushing my hair. Great, now I have to take that test with a cap on. My Birks. Where are they? Ah, a friend borrowed them. Guess I'll have to wear some rubber shoes. Socks. I need socks.

"Don't forget to zip," my roommate called out as I looked to for my stuff.

Okay. Where are my pends? Wait. I can't take a physics test without my scientific calculator. I grabbed my roommate's scientific calculator for some good measure. Nothing is absolutely worse that a broken calculator during a big test. She can borrow some other's calculator. This is an emergency after all.

Cab. I need a cab. Jeepneys would stop for, like a million times just to get their seats filled up. There. There's a taxi. I stepped into the road and waved my hands like crazy to hail the cab.

" Ma, sa Institute of Physics, ho. Paki-bilisan lang kasi late na ko." I told the cab driver.

Bwisit na mga humps 'to. Ma-lelate ako dahil sa humps.

"Miss, mukhang may banggaan sa kanto. Traffic."

Kung malas ka nga naman talaga. Pati traffic galit sa'kin.

"Dito na lang po ako. Maglalakad na lang po ako. Late na talaga ako." I quickly gave him some cash and said, "Keep the change."

Hmmm. Ganito pala ang ma-late, nagiging generous. Buti na lang naalala kong magdala ng pera.

I ran like crazy on the sidewalk and bumped into this guy. He gave me a funny look and looked at my zipper. I have forgotten to zip after all. So instead of saying sorry to the guy I said, "I'm late. What's your excuse?" And I ran as fast as I could.

9:05. Did I say how my professor absolutely hates tardiness? Well, he does. No exception to the rule. I am so damn late.

I rushed up the stairs like a madwoman. 9:07. How am I going to explain to the professor why I am late?

And as I reached our classroom...

"The long test is postponed until next week. An emergency came up," said the note posted on the door. I banged my head eight times. Conut 'em. Same number as the number of minutes I was so-called late. All that fuss for a week later test. Damn.

I went down the building and saw the guy I ran into this morning. He had this silly grin on his face. I looked at my shirt and saw that I wore it backwards. Sheesh. So that was why it felt a little tight. I also had on two different socks. I looked again to see if I had my left shoe on my left foot. I did.

"Hey, you've already seen my fly open, my shirt backwards, and my socks mismatched. Can't you feel some sympathy for me?" I shouted as I was crossing the street. Then I saw a car rushing to me. I blanked out.

I opened one eye then another. There's the guy again.

"Where am I?" I asked.

"My room, you ok? The guy replied.

"Yeah, I think. What happened?"

"You fainted even before the car hit you."

"Blame the caffeine. Hey, thanks."

"Don't mention it. Want some breakfast?"

"Sure."

(from The Magnificat's 2nd Issue, SY 2004-2005)

wasted

2005-04-21T22:21:00.000-07:00

Im wasted again pasted out dont know who I am im so wasted again black out dont know where Ive been or who I am i thought I could make it on my own i thought I was indestructible i had an excuse cause i was young i thought I was so untouchable i would throw it all away i would throw my life away im wasted again pasted out dont know who I am im so wasted again black out dont know where Ive been i couldnt admit that I was wrong i didnt fit in didnt belong i was young i was stupid a life of despair i was proud i was angry i just didnt care i was everything I never wanted to be i became my enemy i would throw it all away i would throw my life away im wasted again pasted out dont know who I am im so wasted again black out dont know where Ive been or who I am they Said I had potential they said I got whats coming to me they say I got the devil (the devil) and I dont know whats wrong with me whats wrong with me im wasted again pasted out dont know who I am so wasted again black out dont know where Ive been im wasted again pasted out dont know who I am so wasted again black out dont know where Ive been cause Im wasted again (so wasted) im wasted again so wasted im wasted again so wasted im wasted again so wasted so wasted so wasted so wasted by Goldfinger

pink nail polish

2005-04-21T22:16:00.000-07:00

Pretty pink bottle,
never been opened.
Delivered to one so innocent.
Intensely used for about a
week to display lovely bright nails.
The
novelty has worn off,
so the bottle is stuffed into a drawer where many more just like it
have been placed.
Another empty sole
to add to a collection of
abuse.

crazy but

2005-04-21T22:05:00.000-07:00

When everything is going wrong
And you can't see the point of going on
Nothing in life is set in stone
There's nothing that can't be turned around
Nobody wants to be alone
Everybody wants to love someone
Out of the tree go pick a plum
Why can't we all just get along
Boys in the girl's room
Girls in the men's room
You free your mind in your androgyny
Boys in the parlor
They're getting harder
I'll free your mind in your androgyny
No sweeter a taste that you could find
Than fruit hanging ripe upon the vine
There's never been an oyster so divine
A river deep that never runs dry
What you need
The birds and the bees they hum along
Like treasure they twinkle in the sun
Get on board and have some fun
Take what you need to turn you on
Behind closed doors and under stars
It doesn't matter where you are
Collecting jewels that catch your eyes
Don't let a soulmate pass you by
Boys
Girls
Boys
Girls

whew

2005-04-13T20:59:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, my cousins and I walked from UP to McDonald's Katipunan then from there to Ateneo. Talk about taking a relaxing morning stroll.

Contra

2005-04-12T00:22:00.000-07:00

An old man turned ninety-eight.
He won the lottery and died the next day.
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic. Don't you think?

It's like rain on your wedding day.
It's a free ride when you've already paid.
It's the good advice that you just didn't take.
Who would've thought it figures?

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly.
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye.
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight.
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic. Don't you think?

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right.
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face.

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife.
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife.
And isn't it ironic. Don't you think?
A little too ironic and, yea, I really do think.

Ironic
Alanis Morissette

2005-04-12T00:16:00.000-07:00

My twisted lola-hot-mama-bebe. (elise, bayad mo? haha. mwah.)

the thing

2005-04-12T00:01:00.000-07:00

Chop suey!

Wake up
Grab a brush and put a little makeup.
Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup.
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
Here you go create another fable.

You wanted to
Grab a brush and put a little makeup
You wanted to
Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
You wanted to
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
You wanted to

I don't think you trust
In my self righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die.

Father, into your hands I commend my spirit.
Father into your hands
Why have you forsaken me?
In your eyes forsaken me
In your thoughts forsaken me
In your heart forsaken me.
Oh, trust in my self righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die
In my self righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die.

Chop suey!
System of a Down

Karol is not the God, or not.

2005-04-11T23:25:00.000-07:00

Not.

He was human.
He was a priest.
He got sick.
He died.

Think again.

Christ was said to be partly human.
Christ was a preacher and a person who loved to pray, just like a priest.
Christ was not said to have any sicknesses. But, though Paul was a very sickly man, he was able to do a lot of wondrous deeds through the seemingly divine strength that radiated from him even during his sick times.
Christ, if he was truly partly human, died, too. But, he was the son of god, a part of the “threefold.”

Then, by transitive property of equality, Karol is the God.

or not.

What now.

Trust (Get into it.)

2005-04-06T23:11:00.001-07:00

gateway n : an opening for a gate in a wall or fence; a passage into or out of a place or state
ultimo adj : of or occuring the month preceding the present

hyperemia n : excess of blood in a body part
rectilinear adj : moving in, or being in, or forming a straight line
novena n : a Roman Catholic devotion in which prayers are said for the same purpose on nine successive days
smog n : a thick haze caused by the action of sunlight on air polluted by smoke and automobile exhaust fumes
muss n : a state of disorder
kill v : to deprive of life; to put to death
keet n : a young guinea fowl [imitative]

espionage n : the practice of spying or the use of spies to obtain information about the plans and activities of others
hypocrisy n : a pretending to be what one is not or to believe what one does not
short-horned adj : having short horns or antennae
hysteria n : a neurosis marked by emotional excitability and a tendency to develop sensory and physical disturbances with no apparent organic basis
stipulate v : to make an agreement or arrange as part of an agreement

zombie n : a human in the West Indies without will or the power of speech and capable only of automatic movement who is held to have died and been reanimated but often believed to have been drugged
waggle v : to move backward and forward or from side to side

bow.

*START*

2005-04-06T23:11:00.000-07:00

bright.

The Darkness by Christinia

2005-04-06T22:44:00.000-07:00

If only it were so simple,
to cruise through life smelling roses;
but the obstacles blacken the countryside,
and we unwittingly crush them beneath our boots.

Dreams sustain us through the madness;
goals give a finish line to our race.
Yet they change with every turn, around every wall,
and remain elusive throughout the quest.

Mistakes are made, and regrets are our luggage;
we will drag them with us to slow us down.
The victories are flashes of light, sudden and unlasting, which allow us
to glimpse the road ahead before darkness descends.

Love is bitter, yet it is the bread that keeps us.
Over and over it fills us up, only to starve us.
The people whom we love shape our destinies and our strengths,
yet leave us cold and alone in the darkness.

There are others trying to race to the end;
occasionally, we bump into one or two.
The bonds we form help us down the path less lonely
but eventually, we lose each other in the darkness.

Alone is not a bad way to be;
it clears your head and focuses you on the journey.
Cherish the short intervals during the quest you have with others,
but be prepared to walk alone in the darkness.

2005-04-06T03:20:00.000-07:00

Fiscal boom. smiley.

(If) I was a rich girl

2005-04-06T02:40:00.000-07:00

If I was a rich girl
na-na-na-na-na-na-na-na-na-na-naaa
See, I'd have all the money in the world, if I was a wealthy girl.
No man could test me, impress me, my cash flow would never ever end
Cause I'd have all the money in the world, if I was a wealthy girl.

Think what that money could bring. I'd buy everything.
Clean out Vivienne Westwood, in my Galliano gown
No, wouldn't just have one hood. A Hollywood mansion if I could.
Please book me first class to my fancy house in London town.

All the riches baby, won't mean anything.
All the riches baby, don't bring what your love can bring.
All the riches baby, won't mean anything. Don't need no other, baby.
Your lovin' is better than gold and I know.

I'd get me four Harajuku girls to inspire me and they'd come to my rescue.
I'd dress them wicked, I'd give them names. Love, Angel, Music, Baby.
Hurry up and come and save me.

gee i like to think of dead by e.e. cummings

2005-04-06T02:23:00.000-07:00

gee i like to think of dead it means nearer because deeper firmer
since darker than little round water at one end of the well it's
too cool to be crooked and it's too firm to be hard but it's sharp
and thick and it loves, every old thing falls in rosebugs and
jackknives and kittens and pennies they all sit there looking at
each other having the fastest time because they've never met before

dead's more even than how many ways of sitting on your head your
unnatural hair has in the morning

dead's clever too like POF goes the alarm off and the little striker
having the best time tickling away everybody's brain so everybody
just puts out their finger and they stuff the poor thing all full
of fingers

dead has a smile like the nicest man you've never met who maybe winks
at you in a streetcar and you pretend you don't but really you do
see and you are My how glad he winked and hope he'll do it again

or if it talks about you somewhere behind your back it makes your neck
feel pleasant and stoopid and if dead says may i have this one and
was never introduced you say Yes because you know you want it to dance
with you and it wants to and it can dance and Whocares

dead's fine like hands do you see that water flowerpots in windows but
they live higher in their house than you so that's all you
see but you don't want to

dead's happy like the way underclothes All so differently solemn and inti and
sitting on one string

dead never says my dear,Time for your musiclesson and you like music and
to have somebody play who can but you know you never can and why have to?

dead's nice like a dance where you danced simple hours and you take all
your prickly-clothes off and squeeze-into-largeness without one word and
you lie still as anything in largeness and this largeness begins to give
you,the dance all over again and you,feel all again all over the way men
you liked made you feel when they touched you(but that's not all)because
largeness tells you so you can feel what you made,men feel when,you touched,
them

dead's sorry like a thistlefluff-thing which goes landing away all by
himself on somebody's roof or something where who-ever-heard-of-
growing and nobody expects you to anyway

dead says come with me he says(andwhyevernot)into the round well and see the kitten and
the penny and the jackknife and the rosebug
and you
say Sure you say (like that) sure i'll come with you you say for i
like kittens i do and jackknives i do and pennies i do and rosebugs i do

Time

2005-04-06T01:38:00.000-07:00

No one has ever explained what time really is. Even Einstein had a hard time trying to discover the true meaning and concept of time. Where did time come from? Who controls time? Who knows what the real time is? What is forever?

Time is the only thing that is present since before the Big Bang or the Creation. But, nobody ever saw time. Yes, people look at time, but no one has ever seen it.
Sometimes, I think of time as universally undetectable, electromagnetic-mechanical waves springing from all matter and traveling in all directions faster than the speed of light. As these waves travel, they create a worldly rhythm like: tick-tock-tick-tock. This rhythm has three different dimensions which define the types of time, namely: past, present, and future. I often imagine the past, present, and the future all happening at the same time. The thought is kind of strange, but it may be possible.

Most of us think that this time is the present. But how can we be certain that this is really the present? What if all this while, we live in the time called past and the present is our future? Or, if we really are in the present, how do we know that all the people here with us are from the present too, considering that in the future, technology is advanced and people ride time machines to go back to their past, which is the present? The idea gets even more confusing if we are in the future, for everything is past and there is no more future. Makes sense, huh?

**********

2005-04-05T04:21:00.000-07:00

*tada!* I have an idea!

2005-04-03T05:02:00.000-07:00

Abortion is a choice. Make the right decision.

Tungkol sa araw na ito.

2005-04-03T03:49:00.000-07:00

This day was exceptionally weird. After almost seven days of doing nothing, today was supposed to be the day when I get to go somewhere or actually do something for a change. I don't know. I actually had plans of things to go to the whole day but I'm still bored.

Parish, bored. Shang, bored. Lola's, bored. Metro East, bored. Mark's, bored.

**********

This morning, the Pope died. (*moment of silence*)

My mother was literally glued to the television since yesterday because she was waiting for the announcement of the death of the "Holy Father". The funny thing was she fell asleep right before the announcement. (*yung smiley sa ym na tumatawa na gumugulong*) At this moment, mom is (guess what?) still glued to the television. But this time, she's crying and taking pictures of the Pope's (well, former) lifeless and dead (how redundant) body.

**********

This morning, there was an earthquake.

Yea, there was an intensity 4.3 earthquake earlier this day at about 9.45am. Nobody really felt it except for the people from Tagaytay and Mindoro. During the news report about the said earthquake, one particularly innocent newsperson asked the guest Seismologist if a tsunami (chu-nah-mee) should be expected. The irritated Seismologist stared blankly at the newsperson and, in a clear and lifeless voice, said, "No." (*silence*)

**********

This morning, I went to the UP Parish of the Holy Sacrifice for an organization meeting. bow.

**********

This afternoon, I went to the Shang for lunch. With me were my parents, my cousins, and my tita's. After eating, we decided to check on my Lola. So we went there.

**********

This afternoon, I went to my Lola's house in Bago Bantay, Quezon City. When I went inside her room, she was wearing pyjamas and socks and was tucked inside a blanket. Wiping the sweat on my forehead caused by the extreme heat outside my Lola's room, I asked her why she turned on the aircon when she was already feeling cold. She just kissed me and asked me how I am. (Talk about changing the subject.)

**********

This afternoon, I went to Robinson's Metro East for my dad's haircut. It took us almost an hour to reach the place because the traffic was heavy. (His favorite trim shop is in Metro East so we had to be patient. He won't agree to have his hair cut in another trim shop other than his favorite.) When we finally got there, we went straight to his "favorite" barber shop. Then, we just stayed there for (what!?) thirty minutes then we left immediately. (Talk about wasting gasoline.)

**********

This afternoon, I went to my cousin's house which was situated just beside our house. Then, I went home. period.

___________________________________________
********** - car ride

2005-04-02T02:48:00.000-08:00

You make me and break me.

Hinga lang.

2005-04-02T01:35:00.000-08:00

I've been driving for an hour just talking to the rain.
You say I've been driving you crazy and it's keeping you away.
So just give me one good reason, tell my why I should stay
'Cause I don't want to waste another moment saying things we never meant to say.

And I take it just a little bit
I hold my breath and count to ten
I've been waiting for a chance to let you in

If I just breathe and let it fill the space between
Everything is alright.
Breathe every little piece of me, you'll see everything is alright
If I just breathe.

Well the talks are overrated. Am I saying how you feel?
So you end up watching chances fade and wondering what's real.
And I get you just a little time and wonder if you realize
I've been waiting 'til I see it in your eyes.

I've been driving for an hour just talking to the rain.

Mamamatay na daw si Pope.

2005-04-01T23:49:00.000-08:00

(ang problema ng mundo.)

Death
How to cope with the inevitability and finality of death was one of the more disturbing of the many troubling questions which prompted the writing of 'Foundations'. It also provided the motive for the proposal to establish the Society of HumanKind. The hope which that first founding book creates is that by our own efforts in and through the Society we will gain eternal life for ourselves and for every member of our species. If we are to dedicate ourselves to the achievement of that Aim we must truly believe that it will be realised. The corollary must be an equal conviction that both the dead and the yet to be born are not forever lost to us, a consequence which gives the Treatise on Morality its force.
Adherence to the Society of HumanKind and a sincere commitment to its Aim must mean that we believe the death of an individual to be no more than a transition from one state of existence to another. That assurance may provide some comfort to us when we face our own mortality but it can offer little to help us to cope with the passing of those we love. Death will still irrecoverably separate us from them. The Society will not give its support to any attempt to communicate with the dead. The risks involved for the natural progression of our history, and for the achievement of our Aim are incalculable and therefore unacceptable. We must learn to accept that once we have lost one of our companions to death, they are gone to us for the rest of our lives. The Society and our faith in it may lead us to the confident hope that we will meet them again, and in better circumstances, but we will still have to live without them, and with the pain and distress of their absence.
Much of the pain of death for the living comes from a sense of loss. It marks an end to all the possibilities both for ourselves and for the departed that might have been realised by a longer life. Yet the Principle of Peace and the Treatise on the Individual both emphasise our inability to judge the value of the existence of any individual with any certainty. How then can we even estimate what any individual might have contributed to our society had they lived longer? How can we begin to guess what might have happened in our lives had they still been with us? An understanding of the Principle of Peace must lead us to recognise that we have no measure by which we can judge whether it was better for any individual to have lived a longer, or for that matter, a shorter life.
Or even to have lived at all. Only if the achievement of the Objective of the Dogma is followed by a realisation of the Aim of the Society of HumanKind will we be able to say with any confidence that every individual lived for as long as was needed, and that they made their proper contribution to the survival and progress of humanity. Only then can we be sure that no-one lives or dies in vain. If that Aim is not realised however, then no matter how great the impact of any human life, or how valuable its contribution to the history of our species, both for us and for the departed, all will vanish like a stick snatched from water, leaving no trace.
We honour the dead therefore by working to reunify humanity outside the constraints of our mortality, which is the cause of their loss to us. We cannot ease our pain by attempting to estimate the value of their lives, because we have no means to make that judgement. All we can do is to strengthen our resolve to accomplish their salvation, a task to which they can make no further contribution.
Let us therefore mark the occasion of death as the moment simply to give thanks for the life of the departed. If we truly believe that the Objective of the Dogma will be achieved then we must be confident that the existence of the deceased will contribute to that success. In that faith we can rededicate ourselves to the discharge of our Duty, through a renewed determination to build the realisation of the Aim of the Society of HumanKind upon the work and achievements of all our predecessors, not just the one that might be specially in our thoughts.
In the presence of death we must look to the future and give thanks for our existence; our culture; our knowledge; our peace; and our unity. That is the priceless gift of the dead and the foundation on which we must build our hopes for their salvation, and for that of all humanity.

*http://www.society-of-humankind.com/essay_death.html

The Beauty of a Woman

2005-04-01T23:09:00.000-08:00

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him. "I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will." Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?" "All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.
The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry. Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?" God said: "When I made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly. I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly. And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."
"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

cool.

Insensitive

2005-03-31T01:21:00.000-08:00

How do you cool your lips after the summer's kiss?
How do you rid the seat after the body bliss?
How do you turn your eyes from the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound of a voice you'll know anywhere?

I really should've known by the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes, the natural goodbyes
By the chill in your embrace, the expression of your face
That told me maybe you might have some advice to give on how to be
Insensitive.

How do you numb your skin after the warmest touch?
How do you slow your blood after the body rush?
How do you free your soul after you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart it's a crime to fall in love again?

Freaker

2005-03-31T00:50:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, my friends and I went to Gateway to watch a movie. It took us a long time to buy our tickets because we couldn't decide on which movie to pick. After the long discussions and debates, we ended up watching Be Cool.

Before the movie started, I thought I wouldn't be able to appreciate the movie that much because I didn't know what the movie is about. All I knew was that it had John Travolta and Uma Thurman in it. But, the movie turned out to be good and I pretty much enjoyed it.

Now, if you're planning to watch this movie, here are some things you should expect:

1. Men wearing toupees should use low calibrated firearms only.
2. Mourning widows tend to drink while sunbathing when left unsupervised.
3. Your body and your car must be proportional.
4. The Rock, the former wrestler ("Do you smeeeeell...?"), is versatile. Very.
5. Gangsters travel in packs. rawr yeo.
6. Movie actors that venture into the music business are oftentimes underrated.
7. Uma Thurman wears fabulous clothes, even when sleeping.
8. Christina Milian can sing. Super.
9. John Travolta is so damn calm.

All these and more.

*bow*

Monday

2005-03-31T00:39:00.000-08:00

This is nice.